Wednesday, March 27, 2013

...Seven



Seven

Not too long after July 20, 2010, my head began to have pulling sensations. Like something was moving inside.  The pulling was localized mostly on my left side.  They would occur for about fifteen seconds and dissipate. When I spoke to my physician, she had no clue what was happening.  I had hoped there was a medical rationale for it. 
I began to wonder if this was some sort of download. At first, I wouldn’t notice anything too different. I felt the pulling sensation, and then began to notice a bit of difficulty sequencing things. None of my friends saw any of this despite me telling them about it.  Maybe that is a good thing.
It is important to mention at this point that I have a most excellent memory for detail.  I can remember where things are on a page, a kind of photogenic memory.  My Dad also had this.  Mine is much less developed I think.
After the pulling sensations, I notice that my sense of acuity is more developed.  I get knowings that things are about to happen.  It could be that someone is pregnant, or having difficulty with their pregnancy, that someone is losing their job, that someone is unhappy in their marriage and about to divorce.  My ability to feel their pain has always been present but again, more so now.  And it doesn’t come from my brain like I think it did in the past.  It comes from my bodymind working together.  The knowings come from within.
They don’t present themselves in way one might expect. I experience them much like flowers experience the sun.  Small incremental changes.  They come out when I first awaken, sometimes during the day or when someone prompts me in conversation. Something will pop up that I know and I want to share it.  Sometimes I have to be careful with whom I share these knowings.  Not everyone wants or can handle them.  Then the knowings manifests into an earth plane reality.
Often I feel the presence of sky ships.  While I can’t always see them thirty-five feet over my head now, I see them in the distance. They move fast!  They leap frog, zip straight up like they are following a straight edge ruler.  They disappear and rearrange their patterns.  They are more in abundance than ever.  I have watched them for years. 
I feel they are more than frustrated with us.  With our destruction of the environment for profit, the self-serving Congress, that we are so complacent.  We weren’t always that way.  They wonder when we will love one another and our planet enough to stand up for a healthier lifestyle and stop the madness.  They think we are a bunch of followers.  I can not disagree with them.  It frustrates me as well.
They saw us come together on 9/11 for two weeks.  They saw us stand up for civil rights on the March on Washington in the 1960s.  They are embarrassed.

Last November, my ears began to ring.  Consulting an otolaryngologist, she had no explanation.
“A percentage of the population gets this.  It isn’t anything to worry about.  It may go away.”
Sometimes it does abate for a few seconds, only to return.  The last time it stopped was about six weeks.
Too many coincidences. Or not?

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

You Dreamed A Dream


http://comehometothemountains.com/?mls_number=47610&content=expanded&this_format=0

You're nestled in the Great Smoky Mountains of western North Carolina.  The way life should be.
Sitting on your front porch.  Fresh crisp, air. Hummingbirds.


It's winter and your home awaits the burst of spring bulbs.

 You see this from your sunroom.






Family and friends love being here. 

http://comehometothemountains.com/?mls_number=47610&content=expanded&this_format=0


Smoky Mountain Surprise: Chapter Six



Six
I thought about the relationship I had gotten into the year before.  Maybe it was the years of a poor role model in my father who walked out when I was sixteen.  Never available, always hours late.  Even leaving me outside my school when everyone else had gone home and it was dark. At ten it is pretty frightening.
I did what I knew.  I married an emotionally unavailable man at twenty-two. The marriage completed after twenty-eight years.  Through lots of reading and study I learned that only when I was emotionally available to myself would I meet a healthy, worthy man. 
The first man I dated after my divorce became my roommate.  I had known him for years. We traveled the world in our six years together.  But there became more and more outbursts of anger on his part.  Anger had no place in any relationship I could be in. I had worked too hard to allow that. I wasn’t afraid to end it with him.   And there were others I dated after him.  All emotionally unavailable as I was to myself.  There was one I met while volunteering for Habitat for Humanity that was probably the most sad of all of them.  Just three weeks before my sighting, I ended that.  I finally saw my part in what I helped create. 
The world turned more and more ugly.  So many institutions were collapsing because of their greed and self-absorption. Post the Enron scandal, there were Wall Street bailouts, environmental disasters, collapsed economies, HAARP induced megastorms sparing few. I felt Mother Nature's pain.  Clearly, they were here to warn us. They come to check on us.  To tap in.  I was on high alert.
They say most of the learning in life takes place outside of college.  That was definitely true of the UFO experience. I continued to receive more knowings.  Like things were about to happen.  Like the electrical current going through my legs discharging to wherever my feet were placed.  Never having had this before, my intuition told me to record the precise moment I felt these sensations.  I began looking at the United States Geological Survey (USGS) map checking out the time, finding the place where it had occurred.  I wondered what I had missed in the past, if I had missed something intuitive.  I don't think so.
The week prior to the tsunami in Japan, my joints through my petite body ached.  Hurt.  I was more than miserable.  Two days before the tsunami, the pain abated.  But that morning, much like the morning my mother passed away, I knew something had happened.  Something directed me to look at my Doctors Without Borders map on the wall in the mint green study.  Standing motionless I went to the computer.  I pulled up the USGS map on the internet and there it was!
A tsunami had occurred precisely the moment I was bolted out of the quiet of my sleep.  I couldn't turn the television on fast enough.

         The electrical current, or piezo-electric effect continued. It is the same effect animals have when an earthquake is about to erupt.  They get agitated and move to higher ground, to safety.  This is also the case with the animals in the National Zoo in Washington D.C. when the 6.9 ‘earthquake’ was experienced in Virginia.
I began to feel many earthquakes. There were hundreds.  Even one on a road trip near the epicenter when I was visiting New Hampshire.  Again, I jotted the time down.  When I reached my home, I opened up the Mac and a quake had occurred in the area where I was.  This continues to this day as does my intuition on events that are happening.
Friends suggested I talk to a seasoned psychic about it.  I spoke with several of them.  Each one told me I was intensely psychic as though I needed confirmation.  They told me I had powerful healing energy.  That I need to work in this field.  My Reiki Master, some eight years before my UFO encounter told me when I received my certification.  That I didn't need to go beyond the first attunement.
“There is nothing we could offer you that you don't already have.  Very powerful energy.  Are you aware of this?" she said.
Even the other students in the class felt my energy when we traded treatments. I was humbled.  Responsible.
Now it is like a veil has been lifted.  I see things before they happen.  I saw my Mother's death and heard her say goodbye to me even before the UFO encounter. Recently, I saw my uncle's death, that is was peaceful, that his long time female companion would be at his bedside. 

Smoky Mountain Surprise: Chapter Five



Five


I wondered why it was so dark when I awakened.  The L.L.Bean Moonbeam clock revealed two seconds to one o'clock in the morning.  But I was totally refreshed. Two hours of sleep?  Wait.  Something was different.  I was different.  My awakening body felt different. I wondered if I had been abducted. I felt lighter.   There were no marks anywhere on my body for my eyes scoured myself deftly. 
But what happened when I was sleeping?  With only two hours of sleep, had the energy of a teenager.
But there was more.  Thoughts and information didn’t come from my brain anymore.  They came from my body-mind, working in concert together.  Maybe it was what the Yogis strived for.  The Quetzalcoatl.  Everything was as thought it was for the first time. 
There were lots of knowings.  A puzzle piece here, a puzzle piece there.  Each morning revealed something new but none of it made sense.  Not at first. 
More than patient with all of this, I let things be as they are.  Not so easy when you have had a lifetime of Type A behavior.  Maybe this was the Type B aspect surfacing more?  The Type B always came out in my artwork, my creative side.  The side that paints watercolors, becomes inmeshed in music, lives to go to the symphony at age thirteen, wants…needs to create.  It wasn’t in my head anymore.  More sentient than I have known, there were so many unanswered questions. Almost like the space before the epiphany – it all comes together for you. 
             I thought about my aging Mother. Alone by choice in a Florida retirement community.  She was fading fast.  Living in a senior community isolating herself from family and friends did that. I wondered how other galaxies handled their older folks.  I sure didn’t like how ours did.
As the daughter of a Mother whose background was both in geology and physics, I wished she were near. That “they” could help her. 
But our socialized science wouldn’t prepare my Mother to handle this, though her understanding of possibilities would. Even though I tried to share the experience with her, her mind was gone. I hoped she knew.


The early morning awakenings continued for nine consecutive nights.  Again I was aroused at exactly two seconds before one o'clock.  I was full awake, fully refreshed. Alert.  The clock with its batteries hadn't lost time. But had I?
After ten consecutive nights, the puzzle pieces became clear.  I was told to spread the word that we need to be sustainable immediately. Both economically and environmentally.   The hourglass was nearly emptied.  Failure to become sustainable would bring catastrophe.
In a world where much is hidden, what do you do with all of this knowledge?  How would I get the collective heads out of the sand. 
“Just talk I was told.  Some will listen.”
Where does this solitary experience go?
Over that summer, I spoke to a few groups, and the local media picked up the story. People wanted to know, understand. The ones who were prepared to see things as they are.  It felt good to be among other intuitives.  I longed to know another experiencer. I was more than grateful to be the conduit. 

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Smoky Mountain Surprise: Chapter Four




Four

         I was more than tired.  Weeding the cliffside garden meant I wore my son's high school navy plaid flannel shirt. Sure there were a few paint marks around the cuff.  That happens with a twenty year old shirt.  Besides it was the only shirt big enough to go over my work clothes.  I didn't want to wear dark pants, but yoga pants were the only things old enough to do garden work.  Sitting on the soil with my knee pad.  Rubber bands nearly closed off my circulation at the cuffs and ankles.

No-seeums seemed to enjoy my oliver skin.  Like the time four summers ago when they zoomed in for the attack.  Across my untanned midriff.  Like dots in Morse code.  Only larger. It took three months of non-stop pain and itching for the welts to heal.  That I didn't scratch once was a miracle. That I was still raw for the wedding says a lot about their determination.

A basket weaved sombrero provided much needed shelter for my face in the intense southern sun. Mosquito netting around my face would have helped.  None was to be found. It wasn't just the no-seeums.  Gnats and mosquitos also made a beeline toward raw flesh.  Bzzzz. Ouch! Six dots that grew in the week to come.

           The air was thick with moisture.  Buggy.  Oppressive. With the nut grass removed and composted over the hill, it was time to get ready to meet my new friend.
I’d met  Carol at a local UFO Conference.  A slender, blond woman with a nicely coiffed bob from South Africa looking older than her fifty years.  Living in a country where apartheid was the main stay wasn’t easy for this free spirit. Her pasty white skin and angular facial features made her stunning with her model’s figure. 
Carol lived  some forty-five minutes over the mountains to the northeast.  I'd met her at a local UFO Conference.  She spoke about numerous encounters that night in town.  The conference center was packing.  Many stood even outside the doors.  Meeting this eclectic woman was like dining with a butterfly.  I kept wondering where and when she would land.

Almost immediately, I was whisked to her garden.  Mystical, magical, Yoda-like.  She told me about the waterless stream on her property.
“I dug the creek myself.  Some neighbors came by to help.  Look at it.  There was no water here and now it is abundant. After seeing the spaceship and setting my intention, the water appeared one morning.  A splashing brook."

She ushered me into her more than comfy home and left to prepare our meal. Carol said she preferred to make dinner.  I hadn't eaten all day.  Since I hadn't tasted South African food before, I was excited to eat.    After a few minutes, Carol appeared from behind the tiny bar in her tiny closet sized kitchen.  A plate with four hind quartered chicken was served.  They had been roasting for some time.  I learned that evening she didn't use spiced.  That was the meal save for dry red wine.  An hour later, her friend met us on the balcony. Her friend stayed while she spoke.  Carol softly retreated to the chaise.

As the evening faded, I left to go home to eat.  Foreshadowing was everywhere. The air was still and silent. Once I left the gravel road and densely covered woods, bright lights appeared in the sky.  They seemed to leapfrog.  I was glad to know the winding road.  The lights followed me until the road became more circuitous and my eyes were firmly planted on the road.  The Highlander followed the road down toward the basin.
It was only when I made the u-turn from the Webster Road, that the sky seemed to darken.  I couldn't find the lights in the sky as the canopy opened. Coming off the mountain felt like being in the zone. Something beckoned me to look up. There it was hovering over the road as I crested the innocuous hill. At first I thought it was crashing.  On a closer look I could see it was tilted to the right, stopped in midair.  Motionless.  Quiet.  This metallic-looking structure was about fifteen to twenty feet tall, about sixty feet wide.  It looked very 1950. As I turned my head to the right, I could see two white sedans in the distance.  One was further back than the other.  The one in the fast lane behind me was closer, some one quarter to a half mile away.  The other vehicle at least half a mile away.  There speed was constant for a while.
My body tingled gently.  I was more aware than I ever imagined.  The five narrow dimly lit salmon-rose windows on the spaceship revealed no beings.  As my eyes scanned the ship some thirty-five feet over the ground, I heard a jet in the distance somewhere to the right and behind the ship.  I never saw the jet.
Fully sentient, I felt the presence of something evil lurking.  Perhaps it was just over the ridge at Cowee Mountain.
The clock in my silver Highlander read 9:40 p.m.  The road was empty of traffic from the south on an otherwise busy highway for a July 20, 2010 summer evening.  Even my new Magnavox cell phone, purchased for its excellent reception in the southern Appalachians was working.  Nothing on the dashboard dimmed.






There just below the twin peaks it hovered. It never moved. 

Looking backward in the darkness of the night, I could see nothing.  But like I said, I knew I would see this that evening.
There is something uncanny about being in the zone.  Everything is possible.  Like the athlete who is one with the football.  Just getting it over the goal post is a matter of the next step.  Everything is possible.  An easy focus.
I remembered the feeling of the evil presence of the jet sounds in the distance.  A pilot later told me the sound was the hydraulics coming from the jet just over the mountain range. 
My whole body felt I was not to have this experience without sharing the moment.  To be fully present. I wanted to call a friend, to have other ears hear the sounds in the distance for their were very loud.  But I was told that it was not necessary to use the cell phone sitting on the seat next to me.  This was to be a singular experience.  I alone was meant to see this.  A conduit.
I kept looking behind me at the two seemingly identical cars in the distance.  One in the fast lane behind me some half a mile and the other similar white vehicle in the slower lane further away than a quarter of a mile.
Even driving under the UFO the sky was totally black.  As I drove out from behind it, I couldn't see anything as I turned my head again looking back.  A void. But as I left this highway, crossing the bridge under Savannah Creek, it felt okay to make a phone call.  I telephoned a photojournalist friend.  He would more than understand.  I recounted my experience as I was glad to be home.  Safe inside.  At least on an earth plane level.  I continued to talk to my friend for a while that evening.
Being home felt like an illusion. I knew any being with this level of technology accesses what they want.  They probably read, know...my thoughts.  I wasn't kidding myself.  I had been exposed.  And more than tired.  My organic, ivory sheets awaited me.  Bed was more than welcomed.

Smoky Mountain Suprise: Chapter Three



Three

            My marriage completed the end of the last millennium.  Even though I knew I wouldn’t, couldn’t… grow coupled with him, I didn’t know life without him.  Thirty years together is a long time, especially when you meet at nineteen.  More than anything, I hoped for a loving parting.  But it wasn’t what happened. 
            “Puppy dogs, that’s what we were.”
            Over time I longed for that deep, spiritual connection.  Someone who had lots of time for their relationship.  Someone who wanted a heart like mine.  But he was self-involved and not interested in people.  I knew, despite years of tears…it was time to go.
            A friend once wrote,
            “Watching her from a distance this was a high functioning woman.  She got things done.  She took care of her family.  But you had to wonder how her heart that had been breaking for years was coping now. She didn’t even know.  Not back then.”
            But write is what I knew.  One book. Then two.  I didn’t know it then; I was writing myself home. 
           
I had just arrived in the southern Appalachians of western North Carolina when I realized there was a reason for relocating there.  The flora and fauna were more than I ever imagined.  But it was the southern Appalachian culture along with its simplicity of word that opens the senses revealing a biosphere beyond anything imaginable. But more than that, a connection to one’s own senses. One’s self.
At once, I was puzzled local writers only wrote about the culture in the era.  I was more than glad to have a university close by.  I hoped it would help to balance local groupthink.
            Frustrated, angry I had to do something with this energy.  Writing a letter to the editor in a local newspapers helped me breathe.
“English Anthropologist Edward B. Tylor in his book, Primitive Culture, published in 1871 wrote,” Culture is a powerful human tool for survival, but it is a fragile phenomenon. It is constantly changing and easily lost because it exists only in our minds.”

Appalachian culture is ongoing. It is not a period frozen in time.  Heritage is ever changing like the people who comprise it.  And there are many interpretations of Appalachia. Aren’t we, after all, the experts in our own Appalachian experience? Who is to say who is acculturated or not?

No where have I ever lived where just about everyone asks, “Are you from here?” as if a Jackson County birth is a guarantee of entitlement or a means to divide people or maybe a starting point for a wonderful long term friendship. It doesn’t matter how or when we arrived, it does matter that we include one another.”  

            I was like the culture in which I lived.  Ever changing and
definitely not fixed in time.  It is hard to know at precisely what time I
found my voice.  In a different way. 

            “That’s not who we are!  We’ve changed, evolved.  Just because we weren’t born here doesn’t mean this isn’t home.  You don’t own this land, no one does.  We’re really just passing through,” I said to a progressive southern writer.
            It was the little and not so little things that called this place home.  Creating a safe place, a preserve, hidden from all, where animals would know they were safe.  Before long, there were kits birthing on the land.  The red wolf in the garden.  But it was burning inside me, perhaps for all the years I kept so much inside, I was about to explode. 
            “Wanting, yearning for a spiritual connection.  Ultimately, it was in the letting go that you fell upward,” said a photojournalist friend.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Because You Asked

Because so many have asked, I am providing the link to my UFO encounter.  I was a guest on a radio talk show.  Here is my experience:

http://audio.wscafm.org/audio/2012/PARANORMAL/WSCA-Paranormal_10-07-2012.mp3

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Forced To Share An Airline Seat

Sunday, March 17, 2013 was St. Patrick's Day. A day of jolly, a day of fun. It was also the flight of USAirways EXPRESS-PSA AIRLINES flight # 2524 leaving from Washington National Airport (DCA) at 8:55 a.m. bound for Manchester, NH (MCT).

When a customer buys a ticket, it is assumed said customer has ONE (1) seat,  that seat is rented to the customer for the duration of the flight.  However, this was not the case on this flight. 

Being FORCED by the airline to share one's seat with an obese individual is anything but pleasant. Not only would the center arm rest not go down, it was a sentence to the seat - sardine style.  



 Apparently she wasn't interested in reading my note which fully explained that I had already spoken with the flight attendant.
 
Had the flight attendant been in the least bit interested instead of commenting, "the plane is full" the passenger could have been comfortable.  They could even have enjoyed the seat for which they paid.  Clearly, this is theft of services allowed by this airline.   It was definitely a day of green, greenbacks, that is, for US Airways.


In fairness, this is their reply:

Thank you for writing to US. I’m happy to have the chance to respond to your concerns.

I’m sorry you were faced with an uncomfortable situation when you were seated next to a person whose size exceeded the width of their seat. As you may know, carriers are not required to provide two seats to a large individual if only one seat is purchased. A second seat may be purchased by our customers for their and your comfort. If such a situation should occur on a future flight, please speak with your Flight Attendant.

...we appreciate the time you took to contact us regarding this matter. Above all, we appreciate your business and look forward to serving you on a future US Airways flight.

Sincerely,


Tiffany Whitt
Representative, Customer Relations
US Airways Corporate Office


Like I said, it was definitely a day of green... greenbacks, that is, for this airline.



Monday, March 18, 2013

Smoky Mountain Surprise: Chapter Two



Two
            I grew up on Belmont Avenue in Baltimore near the Woodlawn section of town. My name, Janel, was a combination of my mother’s mother’s name, my Nana who was called Jennie and my father’s mother’s name, Nellie.  I preferred to spell it Jan el.  Janel.
            Our neighborhood  was typical of most tract communities lined with hundreds of white carbon copy Cape Cods, built in the ‘50s with scalloped shingles. Few people had more than one car per household. They were content to be a simple community and had the blessings and curses that come with it. A motley assortment of people, the blue collar and emerging white professionals, aspired to get out of the crab basket and seize the American dream.  One hundred sixty houses, lined up like desks in a schoolroom, only four streets, one street in front of another.  They were identical in size, not a Levitt tract home community, but on a smaller scale.
“We’re like a giant easel,” the neighbors would say. Stock houses, the homeowners added their special touch just enough to differentiate them from their neighbor.
Within these homogeneous Cape Cods lived a dutiful generation of people.
Nearly everyone belonged to the PTA or risked being shunned from the PTA President. Others volunteered in Cub Scouts, Boy Scouts, Brownies or Girl Scouts and for the fire department.  And there were many other organizations as well.  It was a generation of volunteers.  Commitment meant something.  They were working to improve their world.
Neighbors helped one another complete their basement recreation rooms or pour concrete from the community concrete mixer that everyone pitched in to buy.  When I was young, I thought my family was special because we were chosen to store it.
The children in the neighborhood were raised by the community.  People knew what was going on in one another’s lives.  You didn’t dare get into trouble, lest everyone knew what you had done.  It was an instant guarantee your parents would know, too.
Behind my home was a very large and wooded area.   An escape.  I remember the short story about the Secret Life of Walter Mitty. It was James Thurber’s story about Walter Mitty, a timid person who had a two day daydreaming escapade. Walter Mitty fantasized about one exciting adventure after another.  It was in those woods that I became whatever the Walter Mitty in me would allow.  There were turtles, some snappers, crayfish in the creek, skunk, muskrat, and every kind of foliage you could imagine.  A large rock pile some several miles in diameter created a limitless playground for me and her friends. 
I’d would work all day sometimes to clear the foliage to create the special little ground fort only to come back the next day to do it again. 
“You start out early in the morning when the ground is soft to pull out the greenery.  With a slight squat, you bend toward the root of the shrubs and give it a firm yank.  If you are lucky, you won’t fall backward,” I remember telling a friend.
“There is so much work to be done.  If we do it together, we can finish early. Then we can sit back and enjoy it and we can eat our snacks.” 
They looked a long time to find the perfect spot.  Nirvana means you find a spot near the water where it is cool even if you are only a child.  A large, brown boulder with marble-like mica running through it became their throne.  Upon it we imagined they were bigger, that they were in charge. 
In the winter, the creek formed a glistening ice skating rink.  My friends and I would skate for hours under road bridges along the abutting psychiatric hospital.  No one ever worried about us.  Whether we walked along the railroad tracks, or swam in the nearby rivers, it felt safe.
We watched with admiration the shanty across the creek the teenage boys were building.  They even had a wood stove.  We longed for a peek in the shanty, but were too timid to snatch a glimpse.  It was only when the police finally tore down the fire hazard that they saw the Playboy magazines, Camel and Marlboro cigarettes and the tiny refrigerator.  A few years later, we would learn that two of the boys, both brothers, went to prison because they broke into a convenience store.
The woods were also next to the Meton Psychiatric Hospital.  Once in a while someone would escape.  The remains of a troubled man were found near my fort around my fourteenth birthday. He had shot himself in the head.  The Police and Medical Examiner brought his body through our her back yard on a stretcher.  I never returned to the woods after that.
It was in that community where everyone knew each other by name and although my street had some thirty houses, even as a child, I felt that I belonged.  I called mother’s friends Miss Tillie, Miss Mary, Miss Beanie and Miss Madeline, in keeping with Nana’s southern Maryland roots.
Nana, a petite and warm woman, came to the United States in the early ‘20s from London, England.  Over time she lost most of her accent except when she would speak of tomatoes.  She pronounced them “toe matt toes.”  It always made me laugh.
Nana had eloped in her early twenties to marry her handsome boyfriend from Maryland. He then enlisted in the Canadian military long before the United States got into the first World War.  That is where he lost his left arm. Nana later learned his family owned the land on which Cape Canaveral is built.
But in my tightly knit community, the neighborhood had a block party once a month rotating throughout the community.  My brother, Charles, and I relished the times when our parents hosted the event.  Even though they we were just eight and ten, I remember well the anticipation we had early each morning after our parents hosted the parties just waiting to check out the leftovers. 
“Charles, wake up.  There are some goodies left. C’mon down,” I would whisper in his ear.
Down we went into to the hickoy panelled recreation room.  Still in the heavy double cement sink, they would find Nehi, Grape Soda and Root Beer, and a few bottles of  Fresca.  The ice block purchased the day before had melted.
Dad’s family were originally from Wales although he was born in New Jersey.  Most of his family immigrated to the south.  They lived in Virginia and North Carolina.
It was Dad who was the social organizer for the community.  He started the first baseball league in Woodlawn, an honor for which he was long remembered. 
But Mom fostered traditions.  Like the Friday afternoon we went clothes shopping, picked up a few items at the local Acme grocery store in Woodlawn. The final destination was always a stop at the Rexall Pharmacy.  It had a long, 1950s soda fountain. Mom always took black coffee.  I always ordered Coca Cola, a small one and ate her standard pretzel stick with dipped on the end with a little dollop of mustard.  Sitting at the green counter, Mom continued with one of her Agatha Christie books while I revelled in her my wardrobe folded neatly in the Stewart’s bag on the black and white checkerboard tiled floor.
Mom was an original.  A more than determined spirit with a Margaret Mead orientation to life and a Phyliss Diller sense of humor. She could do anything  - tune a car, wire a room, sew a dress.  She was a middle school science and math teacher/supervisor with a masters degree in physics and was the daughter of a Londoner.  She was also one of Baltimore’s first sex educators.
Mom was a phenomenon in the 1960s, the first wave of feminists who were suddenly single. Although she wanted to be a physician, there was no money for that.  So she went to college while raising Charles and I.
Sewing was another tradition among the women in our family.  Often Mom, Nana and I sewed together.  Once we even made yellow and gray checkered blouses with matching skirts.  I loved when we wore them together. Nana, who taught Mom the art of needlecraft and how to sew.  Mom taught me sewing.  I learned needlecraft in my twenties.
At ten I was sewing simple crop tops.  Working on the unfinished side of the basement with its painted yellow cinder block walls, shelves lined with old newspaper upon which fossils were stored, the room warmth was everywhere.     

Sunday, March 17, 2013

More than Confirmation: Organized Childhood

A recent trip to the national capital, oops I meant capitol, is always a trip about following the money.  Despite living in the area many years, I am more than saddened to see the conspicuous consumption, the vast numbers of  luxury vehicles, high rise and office building construction, more destruction in natural resources and waste, waste, waste.  The roads are better there, the transportation system better there.  The D.C. residents have Taxation Without Representation.  It is the den of inequity.  Poor and rich. And no voice about it.

The chaos is pulsating. The electromagnetic fields there disrupt my sleep on a regular basis.  So does the continual cacaphony of sirens, police and ambulance.   All night long.  The yards are spotlighted because of the immense crime.  Despite the security, there was a recent wave of break-ins to storage sheds in the yard in one particularly wealthy area.  It would be hard to miss the crime in action being seen except for the fact the hoodlums do it while the residents sleep. They want expensive bicycles, tools anything they can peddle.  Fast. 

There is a yearning deep inside me that longs for quiet.  Longs for less of everything.  I am continually at a loss why people need to leave on porch lights, room lights, music, tv, ceilings fans.  People aren't even home. They sleep past the crime because they work unimaginable hours.  They follow the crowd, each looking for their own monetary piece of the action. Few Washingtonians are politically active.  Few risk speaking out again Congress because they don't want to lose their financial potential. They have finely honed their responses when asked about Congress.

"They're smart people.  You can't break the gridlock.  People have ideas about wanting more. Heck, it's human nature."

Human nature?  There isn't even a defense of this.  Where is the outrage?  Most people are just too darn busy being divine parents, divine, workers, divine citizens.

The conversation behind me yesterday in a children's musical theatre consisted of a young father speaking to another young father about hiring the  B      E      S      T      soccer coach for his three year old.  I listened to this father talk about the future soccer coach's academic credentials.  Soccer prowess.  We're talking about teaching soccer to three year old's not high school seniors.  And this is just soccer.  But it could have easily been about music lessons. Don't get me started on pre-schools. Did I mention, there is a one to two year waiting list and it is all done by lottery now?  I hope you know the gender of your divine child while they are in utero. There just isn't any time to waste!

A childhood once spent discovering nature, building a fort, creating art work gives way to organized childhood. So hurry! At the onset of fertilization, be sure to be at your computer to sign up your child.

Nine months goes fast!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Smoky Mountain Surprise: Chapter One

One


As the evening faded, the air was still and silent. Leaving the gravel road and densely covered woods, bright lights appeared in the sky.  They seemed to leapfrog from east to west, then south to north. The lights followed until the road became more circuitous as the Highlander followed the familiar road down toward the basin.
Suddenly the sky darkened.  The ever-present sky lights as the canopy opened were conspicuously gone. Like an athlete being in the zone, fully involved, fully present, possibilities were everywhere. It was 9:40 p.m. on a comfortable July night in western North Carolina, just a half hour from the Great Smoky Mountains National Park.  Leaving Webster Road making the requisite u-turn on 441 south toward Franklin it hovered over the road.  



Janel could smell the fresh air and the honeysuckle alongside the road.  A bird out of a cage.  Everything seemed as though it was happening for the first time.  Like finding a Lady’s Slipper in the center of a path on an old logging trail.  She longed for simplicity. Honesty.  
After a twelve hour ride, she reached the Tennessee/North Carolina border.  The following morning, she meandered along Interstate 81 in small towns where crafts were abundant, some of the best work she had seen.  She picked up a few gifts for her grown children – pumpkin butter in a mason jar and a corncob pipe for a wall ornament.
The Great Smoky Mountains were everything her father had said they would be.  She remembered the stories he told of the beautiful blue mist in the distance.
The ride to her new home two thirds up the mountain, but not all the way to Ginny’s Knob, were lush and dense forests, abundant rhododendron, mountain laurel, flaming azalea and myrtle. Alongside the road flowered Solomon’s seal, red elderberry and black eyed Susans. She devoured the pages in her wildflower field guide stopping often to identify them.
Home to black bear, white-tailed deer, wild boar and turkey, the land was a few yards from the beaten path and entered a world that remained essentially untouched. There were no human voices, just the sounds of nature. Davy Crockett country.
She had just turned fifty, though she didn’t look a day over forty.  Slender, petite. A yoga body.  Her reddish brown straight haired, pixie gently coiffed her tiny features. Even her green eyes were small.  More casual than one would expect given her Ivy education.
Pretense and arrogance held no time with this one. She genuinely liked people. All kinds of them. Her parents had a lot to do with that.

Replacing Reality

Replacing Reality
 
by James Hufferd, Ph.D.
Coordinator, 911 Truth Grassroots Organization
 
I have a disclosure to make. I am, in general, a very calm and confident individual, stubbornly optimistic that things will eventually work out and that good sense and kindly and peaceful intentions will prevail.
 
But when I am moved to write one of these missives, it's because a number of troubling or challenging observations have coalesced somewhere in the recesses of my mind to suck me from my private isle of serene repose and fling me into the roaring, raging sea of some startlingly frightening realization. It is then I reach out, calling for help in somehow responding to my all-but-certain worst-case scenario conclusion by sharing it with as many like-minded colleagues who are likely to understand my distress and actually respond as possible -- namely, you.
Because, 9/11, our shared preoccupation, is the hinge (or, to put it more precisely, the unhinge) of our nation's and living world's shared experience. To clarify and bring about justice for 9/11, therefore, would provide a resolution and re-set for our negatively-charged global circumstances by removing the poisoning element. Tell that to anyone who questions the continued relevance of still seeking the prosecution of 9/11 today.
 
In my humble opinion (or IMHO, if I were on Twitter), two casualties of 9/11 may have been even more important than the 3,000 deaths caused that day, or the 50,000 to follow from criminally authorized and forced noxious exposure, or even the 1.5 million mortal casualties in the wars it brought about. One was due process and the other the twisted and thoroughly corrupted national narrative -- involving the replacement of true awareness with a lifelike manufactured script. Both have necessarily followed the great crime spree itself to protect the hides of the narcissistic elite and elite-rewarded masters of guinea pigs behind it..
 
The loss of due process means that we no longer have the assurance that in the event of a crime, proper investigation and prosecution of the most likely suspects will follow. We see the same drill of oblivious non-response -- damn the Constitution and the public good -- repeated regarding the fiscal crimes of the great banking houses culminating in '08 and beyond. We can't count on the law to protect and restore our perfectly straightforward loss any more. We see it in the April Gallop case. We see it in the Elaine Moriani case. And we are rebuffed and chastised for daring to try to impose our fact-based narrative into theirs.
 
Regarding The Narrative: it's made up. The Rothschild family, the world's now almost certainly unitary executive, due tocontrolling between 1/3 and over half of all wealth outright (while Africa and even the softer margins of Europe, and to a slightly lesser extent, we, crumble for want) verifiably purchased and own controlling interests in both of the wire services feeding us our "news". Look at Afghanistan! What's happening and what's been happening there? We can only guess. Its elected oil company-sponsored leader, Karzai, embittered by serial betrayals, dares state the almost certain truth -- that the U.S. and the Taliban collaborate, and Chris Matthews, over here on the other side of the globe, yells, "Why is he saying that?" Not because it's false, but because saying such a thing is a violation of The Narrative. They're saying he (Karzai) is paranoid, schizophrenic, and worse. No matter: he may very soon end up with a case of cancer, or shot mysteriously and dumped in an Afghan ditch. Or plugged in the forehead: worse than Wikileaks.
 
And likewise, what we as individual citizens figure out from seeing and adding two and two together for ourselves, and from a plethora of now-available precise evidence about 9/11, is "wrong" -- because it runs contrary to the script, The Narrative that is, after all, paid for and wired into our brains by the creme de la elite. Know ye that the current only sweeps one way, and we must swim like hell upstream like salmon and learn to dam it like beavers. And figure out how to engineer the earthquake that can redirect it. Or, all we love in this world will be swept to oblivion, if it's not blown away first. Reasonable gun control is almost certainly the prescription in a reasonable world; but armed to the gills to suit the world to come.
 
And note that all rational explanation of what happened on 9/11/01 and how is simply left out now from all narratives but ours, as if it never even happened, replaced by the one-liner of the chosen myth: which no one else but us dares touch. For fear of being lumped in with internally-exiled, isolated and reviled us. Sorry to break the news!
 
JH: 2/11/13

Monday, March 11, 2013

Ridiculous!@

Tuesday is voting day in this seaside town.  Little has been written about it even in the local newspapers.  So what is a voter to do?  She scours the net looking for the ballot and any information about the local issues.

After a voluminous amount of time, this writer found a pdf file to download.  It took nearly fifteen minutes to download it.  The 2013 ballot for this coastal community is ELEVEN (11), yes, that is '11' pages long.  I don't care about all this minutiae.  At the end of each referendum, you are given how the selectmen and the other local politicos voted. I am a tad lost as to why I would care how others voted.  What would be helpful is to know WHY I would vote thus and such.

Voting YES means a 7% increase. I say do more with LESS.  Eleven pages?  Ridiculous.