Fantasyland: No Rules, Constraints or Restrictions

She was always the daughter who listens. Mom wasn't know for her happiness.  Nor was she know for the lack of filter between her mouth and brain. Opinionated. Her words were piercing.  Especially to a sensitive Scorpio.  But there was a lot she liked about her.  That was where she preferred to be.  In the liking place. So that is where she went for much of her life.

Fantasyland.  It's a  good place. Why not stay there?  Especially if you truly believe the gobbledygook that goes through the average human mind about others.  They say our thoughts are repetitive ones.  That 95% of what we are thinking today we thought yesterday.  Can we be dullards?  The mirror is close.

Beth has a friend she can say anything to.  And she sure isn't one to do that.  But honesty comes with age. She could never tell her family what she really thinks.  Half would admonish her for saying that in the first place.  They wouldn't want to hear.  It might upset their world. Of course, they wouldn't hesitate sharing their honesty with her.  A double standard.

The other half...well, they just don't get it.  A recent conversation with a family member was that there was no depression in our parents. Beth wonders if they were raised in the same household?  Dad was more than depressed.  But you wouldn't know because you escaped.  Beth stayed at home.  Family mattered.  Mom was angry, probably depressed, I mean who wouldn't be with an emotionally and physical unavailable husband? He was never home.  Never.  You did it all, Mom.  You always did.  Angry.  And more than talented.

Beth thinks about the past.  How she got to be who she is.  She thinks about the present.  Grateful to even things out a bit more. She thinks about the future and it doesn't matter.  She likes that the present matters.  Lots. 

Fantasyland draws closer.   There are things she would like. But she is aware of one thing.  It won't be found within the context of family.  It might be found within the context of friends.  That is, if they allow her to be who she is.  Still, she would prefer to have it with family. And she wonders why she can't.People are who they are.


"Today is going to be a great day for you, Scorpio. You aren't one to embrace rules, constraints, or restrictions of any kind, preferring instead to reside in a fantasy world where no limitations apply. Have you considered that it's possible for you to join the rest of us here on Earth and still retain your liberty and ideals."
Yup, Beth likes it here. Liberty and ideals.  They reside there, too.